Hi there, are you alright? Do you need any bags? Would you like any help with packing?

I just thought I'd write a quick post just before I get ready and head off to work. Not an awful lot ended up happening yesterday and so I thought maybe two blog posts in one day was a bit much... In the end, I went food shopping with Mum, then went and bought some storage bags for underneath my bed. I came home, looked at my room, and I honestly had no idea where to begin. So I eventually just tipped virtually everything out and started bagging up. Which might not have been the best move because I gave up half way though and now I'm left with a miniature version of Mount Everest made up of clothes and books in the corner of my room. In all fairness though, the only reason I gave up tidying was because I was getting sick of the shouting from downstairs, every now and again, the 'rents just flip. Never good - because they both have such a short temper.  Thankfully, now I can drive, all I did was jump in my car and then I just went out for the longest drive - up on the hills, down to the beach, then I ended up in Tesco where I bought some cider. Definitely recommend you try this. It's lush. The flavours I tried were Mixed Fruits and Strawberry & Lime but they have a whole variety. 

Anyway, back to the main thing I was going to write about ;) Because believe it or not, cider wasn't it. :P I thought I'd give you an insight into my 'wonderful' job seeing as I'm going to be mentioning it so much.

As I said in a previous post, I work in Tesco, on the checkouts.. Now where I live, is a seaside town with a resort called Butlins. Hopefully you know what that is, if not, there are few sites around the UK and we have one of them. Without it, our town would be dead... there would be hardly any jobs for anyone if I'm honest. It's open most of the year, with adult weekends and family breaks over the half term/summer holidays. This means that we get a hellll of a lot of them coming into our shop. Usually drunk, or buying hundreds of pounds worth of alcohol to get drunk. No wonder everyone thinks the English are alcoholics :P But apparently our Tesco store doesn't have the sense to realise that we're going to need more staff available when everyone's down here on holiday and so anyone that IS working, is rushed off their feet trying to serve everyone. Also, now I'm 18 I have to authorise alcohol/ID anyone I think isn't old enough.. and boy is it fun trying to get ID from an entire group of lads. I'd love to say I really enjoy my job but the truth is I'd probably be lying. Yeah it has it's good moments, when you get a nice few customers or get flirted with which brightens up your day. Although honestly? People have the worst shopping behaviours. They walk slow around the aisles with their trolleys, there's screaming children, some of them have no sense of personal hygiene (they're either coughing all over you, licking their fingers before handing you something, or just are generally unclean/smelly), they leave chilled products just on any shelf since they're too lazy to put it back in the refridgerators, they come to the checkout when they haven't even finished all of their shopping so they run all over trying to get more stuff, they won't let the staff pack for them which essentially means they take FOREVER, nobody brings their re-usable bags, they moan about their coupons running out when they have at least a week validity - AND YOU GOT THEM FOR FREE, so stop complaining... nobody has their coupons organised so getting them out is a nightmare, then the customers behind get arsey because they've had to wait another few minutes, and then their in a bad mood with you even after apologising for something that isn't your fault. The list goes on, it's just a vicious circle.

I can't wait for a job when I don't have to ask like a robot and continuously ask the questions 'Hi there, are you alright? Do you need any bags? Would you like any help with packing?' It makes me so happy when customers make the effort to have a conversation, breaks up my day, makes me smile. The day I get a job that I enjoy, that I love going to, will be the best day of my life. And on that note... I'm off to get ready for work at Tesco ;)

I promise a happier blog next time... but some things just need to be said, right? :P

Ciao, have a good day! xo

Creativity at its finest.

Gooooood morrrrning to any of you lovely people who have actually found yourself reading my blog. Every time I say good morning, I think of the ridiculously happy guy from F.R.I.E.N.D.S - you know the one I mean, right? Yeah... the guy in the video. He's hilarious, but I guarantee if I lived next door to him, I'd be exactly the same! Except on the occasional good day where all I'd want to do is open the window and break into song and dance - that'd be brilliant, and so funny to watch.

So currently it's 9am, I've been up for an hour and successfully made my bed and had a cup of tea which is fairly impressive considering.. well.. it's me. I don't like to think I'm a lazy person, but sometimes you just have those days, y'know? Where there's nothing you'd want more than to just stay in the same place all day, snuggled up, and when you can just do what you want at your own leisure - when YOU feel like it. That's usually when I then get the most motivation. For example, this morning I woke up, saw it was just before 8am and figured if I went back to sleep I'd end up wasting my day - so I supposed I better make the effort and stay awake. Then I just started thinking of crazy things to do with my day. I look around my room and it's just full of STUFF. It's not even junk, most of it is college work that I need and can't get rid of, but there's simply no room for it. I thought maybe I could spend my day doing some DIY, putting up some shelves, doing some painting, getting some storage boxes and making my room generally feel more cosy rather than like an office... But who am I kidding? I'm not the best at DIY, and as much as I'd want to deny it, I have to be honest - I'm not really that creative either. As you can probably tell by now, the blog title is more sarcastic than anything. I have all these ambitions, but I find it so difficult to put them into practise or expand on my ideas. I guess that's one reason why I found art so difficult at GCSE, I believe I was good at it - or at least that's what people told me, but I felt I lacked the inspiration. Where do you find it? Or is it just something you...have, without realising. That's something I'd really like to know.

Now I just have to find something else to do with my day, I want it to be productive. Maybe I'll make a go of my room - sort it out and buy some boxes at least. As a perfectionist and apparent 'neat freak' there's nothing more satisfying than everything being ordered and tidy. It's a part of me I've just come to live with - it's not something I necessarily enjoy, because being a perfectionist can be annoying when you feel the need to re-do things even after the slightest mistake. But you are who you are, and nothing will change that so you might as well embrace it.

As it's only early morning and my previous post was only a matter of hours ago, I'll wait until tonight to post something else and hopefully I'll have exciting things to tell you. Either that, or you'll end up with another post of me rambling on.

Hope you all have a wonderful day, smile your way through it :) xo 

Starting out.

Okay... so I'm not too sure where to start. Blogs are always so strange because it's just as though you're talking to yourself - there's no hints, clues or behaviours, that tell you how the other person is reacting. That said, I'm just gonna go for it and type my heart away. :)  

I guess I should start with the basics. For those of you who don't know me - I'm Gemma, I'm 18 years young, bisexual and I live in a tiiiiiiny town in the South West of England with my parents and younger sister. I go to Sixth Form and I study French, German and Psychology for A2. I did Maths last year but failing one of the modules meant I basically failed the entire thing... haha! But never mind, there's more to life than maths, eh? At the moment I work on the checkouts in Tesco, it's not the best job in the world, it can be boring as hell but it gives me money and helps me to pay for the things I need, my car, gigs/festivals, and to save up for travelling abroad. So it's gotta be a good thing in the end? Anyway.. there are quite a few people I look up to in life, of course family and friends, but also celebrities. You'll more than likely read about these in my future posts, they're rather important ;)

^ These are the most up-to-date pictures of me, I took them about a week or so ago after getting my braces off :) I honestly can't stop smiling now. I've had braces twice... once when I was about 12, and I got them again in August 2010... so to finally have my teeth and smile back again is just amaaaazing, and I'm going to make the most of it!

There's not an awful lot more I need to tell you as hopefully you can just get to know me through my blog posts... which makes this one extremely boring for now.

I'm not entirely sure how this site works yet, so I don't know if you can message me or comment on things, but if you want to get in contact with me, feel free to add me on twitter @Gemmalouisehowe and also I'd love to hear what you guys want me to post about next :)

Love and hugs to you all, thank you if you've read this. xo